Take Me On

Take Me On.

Cut off from the land of the living,
Existing in a twilight zone;
Feeling bitter and unforgiving,
Depressed and tired; so alone.

So in need of love and grace,
Rejection became the worst I’d known;
Refusing to be still and seek Your face,
Knowing I should kneel before Your throne…

Angry thoughts raced round my mind
About myself and about my brothers.
Peace and tranquillity I couldn’t find
Whilst hatred raged towards those others.

Let down, neglected was all I felt.
No good could happen until I’d died!
Empty promises seemed all I was dealt –
Surely my brothers had only lied.

My spirit was crushed, my vision lost;
Perhaps I hadn’t got it right?
To struggle on is such a cost
I need to know I’m in the Light.

From a self-made hell to You I cry –
I need to know my destiny.
Without Your Spirit I will surely die;
You alone know what’s best for me.

I humbly kneel before You now
And ask for Your forgiveness.
I beg You too, to show me how
To relinquish all this bitterness.

Lord take me on now from this place;
Be now my Lamp and be my Guide;
Remove this mantel of disgrace
And let me feel You by my side.

_{This was written at a time when I had felt completely betrayed by a member of my family whom I had dearly loved.}

© AnnaKirsten 14-1-00